Life Lesson

         Life is about trying to find happiness every day. Some find happiness through people, through objects, activities, and even animals. Personally, I find happiness in all of the above. Others find happiness through careers but some are focused more on money than what they really want to do. I feel they would better find happiness if money was no object. Some people’s happiness is more extrinsic which means through outside motivation and some find happiness more intrinsically which means self motivated. The poet Robert Frost understood these simple statements and gave examples of this in his poem “After Apple-Picking”. Through the use of metaphors and imagery Frost conveys a message that sometimes we make mistakes but we should still work hard for what is wanted because in the end it is worth the necessary hardships.
         Frost knows that hard work is important although we sometimes make mistakes and do not see the appeal and he uses imagery to illustrate this. Frost stated in his poem “After Apple-Picking”, “ There were ten thousand fruit to touch,/ Cherish in hand, lift down, and not let fall” (l. 29-30). I feel Frost wants to give the reader a visual of just how much work is involved with this process that seems so simplistic because Frost goes on to say “ For all/ That struck the earth,/ No matter if not bruised or spiked with stubble, went surely to the cider apple heap/ As of no worth” (l. 31-35). I feel this can go deeper than just apple picking, into something bigger like life itself. From this I conclude Frost is saying that life is hard work and using apple as an example, say I picked an apple. In my mind I would be thinking “Yes, one down!!!” and all of a sudden I drop the apple. I still have to pick another apple to fill my quota and the dropped apple would be like a momentary deterrence from the rest of my apple picking no matter if the apple is bruised, ruined, or have no marks at all. Well it is the same way in life. Where I am going with this is every so often it only takes one small thing, say one dropped apple, to slow down or delay work and mess everything up. Also just like the dropped apple is seen as having no worth, occasionally we make one little blunder and we feel we have no worth and that after our mistake it is not worth the continuation of our work but Frost shows us we should be tenacious and careful because in the end hard work has it’s benefits.
         Frost also uses metaphors to confirm that working hard is worth it in the end. Frost says “For I have had too much/ O1-+f apple-picking: I am overtired/ Of the great harvest I myself desired” (l. 38-30). I feel this is metaphoric to life. This is giving an example of intrinsic motivation because he says “I myself desired” and although it is still hard work, he feels it is worth it for himself. This memorandum can be placed into any situation in life where work is needed to be done either intrinsically or extrinsically and your faced with the of whether it is worth it or not to actually do the work. Frost ,I feel, thinks it is worth it for the reason that he wrote a poem about a man who has been apple-picking for some time now because he is experienced. I say the man is experienced because he knows he has to be gentle with the apples, and that he cannot drop them or they become of no worth. So they fact the he is practiced and has been doing this for a while means he chose to do the hard work necessary whether it be for monetary compensation or just for his own personal reasons. I imagine it might be a blend of both reasons because he actually says the words “…..I myself desired” but he goes on to say “There are ten thousand fruit to touch….”. I feel this may be for business purposes because I feel no one would have 10,000 apples otherwise. Nevertheless he realized the hard work was necessary no matter what his reasoning may be.
         Frost is trying to tell us to work hard in everything we do and to not dwell on our mistakes because no one is perfect. So keeping that in mind what if money was no object and we could do anything we wanted to do as long as we remembered Frost’s message?  I personally have always wanted to help people and be in the medical field. I have wanted to be an anesthesiologist ever since I saw this movie called “Awake” where a man was undergoing a heart transplant but when the anesthesiologist put him to sleep he gave the patient to little anesthetic and he was under anesthetic paralysis which means he could feel everything they were doing to him while he was in surgery but he could not do anything about it because he could not move any part of his body or even utter the smallest cry as they were cutting into his skin. Yes, I know it was just a movie but this same thing happens every single day for whatever reason and at times people even die because too much anesthetic is given. I know this is a great amount of responsibility because I have someone else’s life in my hands but that is what I want to do and what I still would do to contribute to society if money was no object. I would work had and if I made a mistake I would not take it lightly, but I would not let it stop me from helping people either. I feel if I can remember Frost’s message I will be very successful in everything I do.

Decisions

If i could change one thing in life i would change how i treated people in Middle School.  I was always mean to people because that is what i thought would make me "popular" i guess. I called people names, talked about their parents, talked about what they wore, and even how smart they were. I did not realize i was loosing people who could have been great friends for people who did not give two fresh squeezed drops of monkey pee about me. I honestly think i would have more friends now if i had not done those things. It made people hate me and feel hurt, subconscious, scared, and just plain not worth anything. I know because that is how i felt when that happened to me. I now have proof  now that those people i tried to fit in with did not care about me because when i see them they do not give me a "hey how is it going" or a "hi", "hello" or anything. They do not even acknowledge my existence. I have now learned that I should not be mean to people, and I am not now, or talk about people because I can just waste my time doing that and trying to fit in, or I can just be me and i choose the latter option.

My Serenity

I would have to say one of my biggest hobbies would have to be reading. It distracts me from everything I am doing including homework sometimes although i get it done still. I love reading because it takes me into a whole different world away from my problems in which someone else has problems that almost always get solved. I have been reading since i was about  years old and it was not those little corny "See Spot Run" books. ". I do respect them though even though i always hated them because of their vain repetition. I was always a little more sophisticated than that. Reading has been in my life for as long as i can remember and i will never let it go!!

Hehe and this one too by the way :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QOowQeKyNkQ

this one too :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jhC1pI76Rqo

I love this song

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gd9OhYroLN0

Music... Music and Oh, More Music :)

I cannot really choose a favorite type of music because i love all music, but i can narrow it down to about 3 genres. Those would be rock/metal, pop, and hip hop. I know it is a weird variety of music styles but I am weird so what do you expect? I chose rock/ metal as one of my favorite because in this genre, they put all their feeling and passion into their songs and say things that others are afraid to say. I also like it because it is wild, like me.

Pop is for my crazy, over-energetic happy moments in life when I want to dance, terribly I might add, and sing with my whole heart.

Hip hop is my thinking music. It is all about personal problems and how the problems do or do not get solved and it is sometimes realize specific problems can be popular and you are not the only one. I'm not going to lie, it also makes me feel a tiny bit better sometimes knowing the next person has it worse than me and i do not have it as bad as i thought i did. It sounds terrible i know but oh well, life must go on.

I can narrow my favorite band/ artist down to about 2. They would have to be Chris brown and Evanescence. I like Chris Brown because his music is something to dance to and is mostly passionate and heart felt when he is not talking about something nasty. Evanescence is one of my favorite groups because Amy Lee ,the lead singer, is something that comes fro deep within her and she is not afraid to say what she wants to. I feel the types of music that i listen to represent me very well because they range from crazy to calm and from happy to sad, just like me.