Decisions

If i could change one thing in life i would change how i treated people in Middle School.  I was always mean to people because that is what i thought would make me "popular" i guess. I called people names, talked about their parents, talked about what they wore, and even how smart they were. I did not realize i was loosing people who could have been great friends for people who did not give two fresh squeezed drops of monkey pee about me. I honestly think i would have more friends now if i had not done those things. It made people hate me and feel hurt, subconscious, scared, and just plain not worth anything. I know because that is how i felt when that happened to me. I now have proof  now that those people i tried to fit in with did not care about me because when i see them they do not give me a "hey how is it going" or a "hi", "hello" or anything. They do not even acknowledge my existence. I have now learned that I should not be mean to people, and I am not now, or talk about people because I can just waste my time doing that and trying to fit in, or I can just be me and i choose the latter option.