Future Aspirations

This letter has been written about 2 years previous to you receiving it. If you are reading this then you have made it passed the beginning struggles of life. By this time you have graduated high school and are on your way to making life changing decisions. You may not remember the reasons behind you writing this letter to yourself but by the end of this letter it should all be somewhat clear to you.

In life there will be many challenges blocking you from your life’s goal. You have to be strong in your journey towards your life goal of becoming an anesthesiologist. There may be people who will try and sway you from this goal but you cannot let them deter you or it is your determination and yours alone that will bring you closer to your destiny.

College will be very hard for you with your major but I want to encourage you to focus because this will get you one step closer each year you pass. I hope your keep the dedication to learning you have now. Keep in mind the struggles early college has out you through and how you overcame them and apply it 2 years later. Good luck and do not let me down.

Love and Compassion

The world is nothing without love and compassion. Love show people that they have someone who cares about them and makes them feel like they are not alone. Compassion shows people that even though they make  a mistake or are a certain way that they cannot help, it is OK. Take for instance a child who knocks over his mother's vase because he was playing in the room she told him not to play in. The mom may get mad and punish him but without love and compassion the punishment would have been far worse because there would have been nothing to hold back her anger.Without these thing the world would be full of hate, blame, and self loath for all the things people have no control over themselves.

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     whenever I come across a situation that tenEs to baffle me about a heavy subject, i tend to wonder whos fault it is. Although I may not always be the one to blame, its only human nature to feel some subconsciencousness about the situaion. Overall i believe that whomever initiates the problem, weather innocent ir not, they're responsible for what happened. I see no justice in falling for such a blame that i may  be innocent of, when i am just a bystandard. The only way that I would take partial responsibility is if i were to help someone do something wrong.

Projects Projects Projects..

There was once a project I spent a great deal of time and effort on. It was a physical science project. We were assigned the task of creating the Bohr model of the atom for a specific atom we drew from a "hat". I got the element Rubidium which was not that hard because it was lower considering the people who got 99 and such. As soon as my teacher announced we had the project and were to make it about us, I already knew what it was that I was going to do. I was going to make the protons and electrons out of M&M's that were painted with two different-color nail polishes, the electrons were going to be made out of Nerds candy and the electron's shells were going to be made out of foil and wire hanger. As soon as I started the project I realized it was going to be a lot harder than I first thought. I faced problems such as the super glue was not strong enough to hold things together, and the electrons and neutrons kept getting lost, and I ran out of foil 3 times. Then after I got everything as good as I was going to get it, the stand kept kept breaking. That happened two me twice. Once at home and once on presentation day. After I fixed it I ended up getting an A. If I had to do that all over again I would choose a different, more simple way because it was not worth the labor or the times spent; 5 weeks.

A Journey Into the Unknown

Through out the years people have continuously explored the unknown. These people include Thomas Edison in his invention of the light bulb , The Wright Brothers in their invention of the classic "Flying Machine", slaves as they traveled from all the knew; slavery, to the North to find freedom and so many others. I feel people devote their lives to this and the discovery of the unknown because they are either simply curious, they would, like to know why things work the way they do, or they are looking for something better than they have. These discoveries often lead to sacrifice. Some of these sacrifices could include loneliness because either the person has a family and they have to be left behind for the succession of their dreams, or the person never had a family or a companion and they have to continue life this way because they are too busy to do otherwise. Other sacrifices include time and frustration. Just like with Edison and his light bulb ,discoveries take time and many failures. Edison failed more than 1,00 times and i personally know that when failure is evident so is frustration. Quite a few things contribute to the study and discovery of the unknown and without these hardships we would not have the amenities we do today and i am grateful for that.

To Deceive or Not Deceive.....

If there was an extreme situation would I tell the truth or lie. I honestly have to say I would tell the truth. This is because it is always better to tell the truth about things than lie and have people know you lie. This would make me non trust worthy if I were to lie about something no matter the situation. Say the situation was my friends and I had went to the store and the shop lifted after I left. Say the police saw my face on the screen, saw I took nothing, and decided to ask me did I know where the other people I were with lived. Say I lied. Yes i would keep my friends and they would not get in trouble but say the cops saw me go to their house one day. Then I would get into trouble and lose something as serious as my freedom for lying to the cops. Now say we are in the same situation and I tell the truth. I would lose my friends for "snitching" on them but I would feel better about myself and keep my freedom for telling the truth. I would also feel guilt though for telling on them but honestly I oiled feel less guilty than if I had lied for them. I feel no matter what the situation is and no matter who is involved whether it be friends, family, or even pets, that we should do what is right and tell the truth.

Academics

 School brings people together or drives them apart, especially in high school.  For the first 18 years of your life at least, school is a very big, mandatory part of your life In life people have academic struggles, accomplishments, and aspirations; I, myself, am not excluded from the many that undergo this. This is all apart of life and school.

In my academic career I have had academic accomplishments. One of those accomplishments is maintaining a 3.2 grade point average. That may not seem like anything big but through out the years I have faced many challenges that prevented me from maintaining the grades I want to have. Another accomplishment I have achieved is finishing homework before it was due. Usually it is hard for me to even finish it let alone early so this is why it is such a great accomplishment for me. It feels good to know that I had not procrastinated to do my work. Last but not least my biggest accomplishment yet is getting accepted in the Lorain County Alliance of Black School Educators (LCABSE). I received this award for getting honor roll my first quarter. I am so proud of this because it was a defining moment for me in my career seeing as my whole entire freshman year I received nothing more than merit role. I am hoping I keep this up In the future. Without a doubt, with accomplishments comes hard times.

Along with academic accomplishments come academic struggles. This, I have a strong knowledge about. An academic challenge that has been very hard to overcome is getting and keeping good grades. This has been a problem since the 6^th grade where I received my first D in Social Studies. This was probably the worst day of my life being as I strive to get good grades. They have not been as bad since that thought and I would not like to go back to that either. A second reason for academic struggles and also for my lack of good grades is my not finishing homework assignments. Last but not least another big thing that was holding me back was the fact that I did not know how to study and did not understand the importance of even attempting. That is when I got into early college and things like tests got harder and studying was mandatory even to get as low of a grade as a C. that was my biggest struggle that I have overcome with the teachers help of drilling that need into our brains. For these reasons I strive to be better.

The accomplishments and struggles brought about the thought of things that I aspire to work on to be better in my career as a student. A big goal of mine that will help in things ranging from non-school related topics to school related topics is to stop procrastinating. I have gotten so bad with it that I do not even know when I am doing it any more. One minute I am doing my work and then the next I am singing or pretending to be in a concert or something along those lines. This is the reason that most of my academic struggles occurred. A second aspiration is to actually learn how to study and only focus on that. Third would be to finish high school with a GPA that is higher than a 3.2. This is probably my biggest aspiration because I want the ability to be accepted into any college without having to worry about grades as an issue. I know that if I achieve this than I would be extremely proud of myself and there could not be anything more that I would want of myself as a short term goal.

With goals and accomplishments come struggles and I have faced just about every one possible in my academic career. I had to learn to be very tenacious and understand of my ways and how to change them to better my opportunities. This was a hard lesson for me to learn and I am still not done learning it. I have been prosperous thus far with hard work and dedication and I believe anyone could be just like me if they stay strong and believe in themselves.

Tragedies Happen

Why do people cyber bully? I feel they do this because they are too afraid to actually face the person they are bullying. I think they do not want to see the hurt on the faces and in the voices of their predators although some people enjoy this. Their motives may also be to fit in with other people who are doing this so it does not happen to them too for being “too scared” to mess with someone else.

I feel people would be more inclined to stand up for themselves or other if it is online. I feel this because they do not feel the pressure of being able to get hurt like they would if they were face to face with that person. Internet offers a certain layer of confidence that is given to most people whereas they would be too afraid to say anything otherwise. Internet is like a mask at a ball or costumes, giving them something to hide behind in case their individual plans are not successful. Internet I feel can be used to help people add confidence to their selves.

Me personally if I saw this happening to someone I would most definitely stand up for that person. I have two reasons for this. One reason is bullying is just plain wrong. It involves being judgmental, discriminating, and getting your feelings hurt. The second reason is because I have been bullied every year since the fourth grade while people just stood there and did nothing. That will not be me. I will stand up for what I believe in so that person no longer has to continue to go through what I went through. I feel all forms of bullying are wrong whether it be in person or on the web because we are all humans and have our faults but we should be strong together as one. I hope that some day soon this happens and we can see all people getting along with one another.

People's Rights

What right do people have to take something that is not theirs? I feel they have no right. Stealing is stealing no matter how big or small the item is. Maybe some people feel they have the right to do this because it previously happened to them, but that still does not make it right to do it to someone else. They should just realize how they felt when this happened to them and use that as a guideline to not do it to anyone else.

No i do not feel it is right to take away someone elses' house if they did not know it was on stolen property. I feel if you do not know something you should not be held accountable for it. Yes, the people could have been a little more careful in finding out the history behind their land before they bought it and they maybe should have to pay the amount of the land to the person it was stolen from but their house should not be destroyed because of someone elses' mistakes. This would be wrong to do because more than likely a person invested time and money into their house and that is their only home. it would be very devastating to see it demolished and on top of that the person would be homeless.

Interior Evaluation

Why do people risk their own lives for others? I have a hypothesis for that. My hypothesis is that people do this because they have a certain kindness in their hearts that allows them to not be selfish and care about the lives of others just as much or even more than their own. A great example of this is the shooting that happened recently in Connecticut at a school full of children no older than 6 years old. When i was that young things like that never happened to out generation. The shooter came into a particular classroom where the teacher had the students hiding and asked where they were and he asked where the students were. The teacher said the students were in the gymnasium and he shot the teacher point blank without a second thought and went to the gymnasium. This is an example because the teacher showed such an act of selflessness by lying for the students so they could survive. the teacher i feel is smart enough to know that an encounter with such a sadistic person would lead to something bad. He gave up his life to let the future generation live.

Another great question is why do people value their lives over the lives of others? I have a hypothesis about this also. I feel this is because people are afraid of death . They can eliminate this fear by trying to live as long a s possible. How do you do this? By putting their lives before others.This may be seen as selfishness to others but i view it as fear. An extreme example of this is with Osama Bin Laden and his wife. When the U.S troops came to defeat him and kill him he used his wife as a human shield so he could keep living. It did not work as he thought it would but it still proves as a great example. If he would have not been afraid of death and did not value his life above others he would have just been killed and let people live instead of taking them with him.

Divine Acquaintance

If I could meet anyone in the past or present who would it be? That is a great question. My ideal person to meet would be Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. This is because I would like to get into his mind a little bit and see was going on in there during the times where blacks were widely hated among everyone and get insight to how painful his struggles for equality actually were. I would take him to every type of public place that was previously segregated like parks, restroom facilities, drinking fountains, restaurants bussing systems and even schools. I would tell him that because of him and so many other struggling Americans we now have non-segregated places and that we do not have to have poor colleges. I would also tell him that his struggles along with so many others actually helped America become more equal and the way it is today and that his death was not in vain. This would help me better appreciate what I have today because it would help me understand better what people had to go thought to get America the way it is.

My Break

This break was very interesting for me. Although I asked my aunt not to buy me anything distracting for Christmas she decided to buy my brother and I a brand new Play Station 3 and it came with a game called Black Ops 2. I was totally convinced i was going to be able to avoid getting distracted from certain things. That is when i discovered a sub part of the game called Zombies. In this part of the game you try and survive levels while waves of zombies attack your location. My brother got tired of playing this game because i wanted to play it so much and he never wanted to play it with me.We started to play the other modes of the game that were far less interesting to me than the section. This is when my cousin Cydney came over and because she had never played Zombies before we decided to play for an hour or so. An hour soon turned into about 10 hours and we did not even notice the time flying by.